Thursday, September 27, 2012

Vengeful With A Chance Of Volatility

I think most people should have experienced what I'm about to tell before (except for those really good souls, I salute you with utmost respect).

Today, I feel a little vengeful, and its the one that stems from others looking down at you (kind of) and you willing to put everything in your life down and hatch a mastermind scheme just to prove them wrong, probably totally with the "in your face!" tonality (I'm not going to disclose all the details, as remembering it all just makes me dwell more on this shallow obsession). However, I don't believe that I should continue to nurture this volatile feeling and distorted view of reality, because although you can use it as a strong motivator, it stems from your own fabricated reality of the other person's mind (although it might be true anyway) (I probably also can't just put everything down). Another reason is because it is so time consuming and mentally unnecessary. The world needs my contribution more than my preoccupation.

What have I become? I'm just human, so I guess this is normal anyway. Luckily I do too much self reflection and I have several good friends, should I stray away or be blind to my own unknown kryptonite. The weekend is almost here.

EROICA! Can't wait.

Oh, and I think I'll help advertise for my friend. Please, please go for this performance if you can:

Ovation, Canticle Singers

It's a chorale performance that will sure to spellbound you! They will perform famous melodies encompassing sacred music to broadway classics to secular adaptations. Go and support them if you can!

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

What We 'Hope' For Our Blood Brothers As Gays

I notice a pattern. For gays who have brother (or has one brother, but I'll just use plural for the context), they prefer to hope that their brothers are straight. I know that it is so that their family will have at least one male to continue their bloodline, and also to alleviate the familial tension and conflict if the parents are non-supportive. However, I believe that such thinking is actually very selfish, that we are putting the same sort of expectations on people who should be given the same amount of liberal freedom as we'd hope we can exercise. We'd just be hypocrites in hiding, not standing up for what we truly believed in, only caring for our own self gain.

I won't impose this thought on anyone else I be judged too.

Skipped work because I got the worse sleep yesterday. Must, must, must get proper sleep tonight!

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Push and Shove

No Doubt is back. Ironically I'm a big doubter, yet I still love them.

Push and Shove, No Doubt.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Ambiga At The Gym

Checking through my blog stats, it seems that so many people view my blog if there are images. Humans are really visual creatures. So I'll try to snap more stimulative visuals when I can (but if you want sexual arousal, there are always porn sites instead).

Today, I was surprised by our very own Dato' Ambiga in the gym! I was too shy to go say hi and take a proper photo, so I had to make do with a stalker-like dodgy shot as if I'm some kind of deranged psychopath with a discerning taste.

Ambiga at the gym.
Not to make a joke with someone's name, but you can technically pronounce Ambiga as 'am bigger' (some foreign reporters do pronounce it that way). (No you shouldn't as the correct pronounciation is AAM-BEE-GA, this is just a lame attempt at humour.) (I respect Dato' Ambiga deeply, just in case you are questioning my actual attitude towards her.)

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Message From A Year-Ago Reader

While looking around my Facebook messages, I suddenly (the word appears again!) saw that I received a message from my blog reader last year in November, and failed to notice it until today. Wow.

I sent him back a message of thanks, but I seriously need to work on my observation skills. That and Facebook isn't exactly the most user-friendly system per se. If you happen to be that person, thanks again for taking the effort to send me a message (and I promise you, it wasn't because I am/was an/a antosocial creature). :)

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Of A Minor Narcissistic Encounter, Koco Krunch Binging (And Maize Commodities), and My Whimsies on A Stationary Bike

Today was a really hot day, and I was out of the office for most parts of the day to visit clients and all. When I was at the last client, a beauty salon, at 4pm, I suddenly noticed my own reflection in a mirror. (And whenever you see the word 'suddenly' appear, it means something is coming, right?) I was shocked at how good I suddenly looked at that angle with that specific lighting. I am generally not a narcissistic person and I'm not exactly extremely happy with my body or anything (although technically narcissistic people tend to have one of the lowest self-esteem), but it's really interesting to have my own diva moments like this.

I was too lazy to bring my usual cooked snacks to work today, so I just brought a bag of Koko Krunch which happened to be lying around at home. I had to rely on it a lot since I was outside most of the time with no access to other food. I basically finished two thirds of the entire package by the end of the day. The only reason why I didn't gobble down everything is because 1. cereal is 'heaty' and I shouldn't eat too much heaty food, 2. most cereals these days are packed with simple sugars, and 3. I ran out of water and cereal can be quite dehydrating by itself.

I always questioned why cereal prices have gone up so much these couple of years (especially the usual cheap mass produced brands like Cornflakes, Koko Krunch, Honey Stars, and the like). Then I realised the incredible change of demand in the last 10 years. Based on indexmundi, corn prices have tripled since 2002. And our salaries aren't going up. We are seriously feeling the krunch more and more, pun intended. Dammit.

Oh, and my last subject matter is my habit of doing cardio in the gym. I actually use music to distract myself from the tiredness and at the same time push myself harder. A lot of people are incredibly surprised when I told them my usual playlist on the stationary bike is the entire Chopin's Piano Conerto No. 1. It is an intensely emotional piece that I could somehow channel to fuel my biking. However, I do make strange expressions and move my body a little as if I'm directing or being directed by the music.

Oh well, not that I care what people think. I'm doing what I can.

I can't get enough of X Factor UK this year, especially Jahmene Douglass and Melanie Masson. Oh, and Jason Brock from X Factor US.

Monday, September 17, 2012

-.4%

One week is all it takes. Just waiting to hit the brick wall.

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Together Thoughts Back Putting

I have several things I need to get settled. Specifically, I need to reassess what I really want now, in my future, and in my lifeline. I need to ask myself again who am I.

Oh, and I seriously need to clean my bedroom. And beg my dad to buy me a new mattress or I'll never get sleep.

Nite peeps.

Oh, and Happy Malaysia Day eve.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Horror Just Isn't My Thing, Just So You Know

Slept relatively well yesterday. I just woke up once, but it didn't seem to affect me that much. Body recovery is still slow, so I'm taking plenty of rest days.

Today, I was browsing through some horror games since I am fascinated by the game mechanics (but I seriously cannot bring myself to play any of those). I don't really watch horror movies too if I can help it (except maybe Black Swan, which many people say doesn't count as one). Take a look at these few if you are a big fan of this genre (regardless whether you are a gamer/gaymer or not:

Please proceed with caution, the clips are quite daunting...

Slender.

Slender is based on a cult mythical creature that seems to have a slight popularity boost recently with the launch of this game.

SCP: Containment Breach.

SCP is a fictitious organisation which tries to contain ünknown items and individuals. Go check their official Wiki out, all content is completely fan made and is actually has quite freaky write ups.

My third and last suggestion is a website, which has several interactive horror point and click horror adventures. I found this when I was in college and the creator made a few more after the pilot version.

You can find it here: sinthaistudio

I don't know why I'm even blogging about this, considering I hate horror and it will illicit some kind of fear before sleep.

Nothing to do here.

The weekend is almost here! (Kind of...). Thanks for the comments, I seriously don't know how you cope with me.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Sleeping Through Sleepless Sleep

I haven't been having proper sleep the past 2 days, despite my effort to sleep on time. My body seems to be waking up a few times in the night, interrupting a much needed restful slumber or stage 3-4 of the REM cycle.

I'm praying I sleep well tonight.

Celebrated my godbro's birthday yesterday. Just a cozy dinner at Ben's Independent Food Store, where we ordered an entire roast chicken, which wasn't that bad.

Work has also required me to come in early these few days, and it is not helping with my sleep problems.

Good night world!

Saturday, September 8, 2012

+ -

Lost much. This is my new start, let's go places I don't know!

8th September 2012.

Friday, September 7, 2012

Complacent Squatter

This week has been relatively lax at work. Although it is a good to facilitate rest for me, I
m scared that I have become complacent and lazy. Ugh.

And squats are the bane of my existence. Going back to leg days after surgery is hell.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Phoneless, Sleepful, and Basically a Lesson on Refrigeration

Yesterday and today, I left my phone at home when I went to work. Both happened so similarly. Yesterday, I basically forgot my office keys at home, because I'm just used to leaving the keys in my work pants, but it is the start of the week, and I probably haven't gotten used to the working routine. So upon reaching the office (which fortunately is only 5-7 minutes away), I turned around to get my keys. Then when I got my keys, I somehow left my phone on the table. Today, I wore shorts to work, but I was supposed to bring my work pants along in my bag for emergencies, so I also forgot my keys and pants at home. When I went back to take my key and pants, I left my phone there.

I'm seriously getting too old.

I'm getting enough quality sleep (with me being disciplined with sleeping early enough), and my body really cranks so much more better. I even managed to go tho the gym today, albeit in the evening.

Okay, now for the main article of today:

Refrigerating Products in Malaysia

I think most of us has grown to use the fridge to keep everything to the point that we think that anything in the fridge can last forever (for the freezer it probably is true, but still). There are some products that really shouldn't go into the fridge, so save some space inside for things that actually matter, and save some trouble too:

1. Peanut butter and other spreads with a high fat content (but not cheese and dairy products). It spreads better at room temperature, and the high fat content and the preservatives of most commercialised spreads keep it safe outside the fridge.
2. Preserves, but not jams and marmalades. Preserves have been cooked down with enough sugar to render them quite hardy. Jams and marmalades are more pure and have a higher moisture content that would be better in the fridge after opening.
3. Hot Sauces and mustard. Most sauces (chilli and tabasco especially) are usually pasteurised and the acidity keeps them from spoiling. For ketchup, read the label for instructions, not all are made equal.
4. Potatoes and tomatoes. Potatoes change form in the fridge, and the starch changes to sugar, and not in a nice way. Tomatoes become mushy and the taste changes, and is better off left outside to ripen more (tomatoes in Malaysia tend to be bought under-ripened).
5. Bananas. In the fridge they turn mushy inside, and the skin turns an unsightly black.
6. Citrus fruits. Left outside, they ripen just like tomatoes, and they also dry up in the fridge and the skin becomes hard due to the dehydration effect.

There's a lot more, but you probably can Google for the information.

As for freezing, do not freeze huge chunks of meat just like that (it makes defrosting slow and troublesome). When buying meat, remove as much moisture from the meat with a clean dry cloth, then cut into the portions that you will be cooking them in. Wrap the individual portions with cling wrap and you are done. If the portion is huge (like a huge batch of chicken pieces), lay cling wrap on a flat surface and spread the meat in a way that it forms a single layer. After that cling wrap the top, using your fingers to press into small cavities and valleys in between each piece. You can then roll the cling wrapped layer into a roll and freeze.

Done.

I seriously need to stop eating canned food, especially canned tuna. It's just so expensive and technically troublesome to purchase, cook and eat fresh fish.

Monday, September 3, 2012

The Daily Weetabix

A few updates.

My elder sister was mugged today at a bus stop near her place in Sydney. There were people around, and fortunately the mugger only targeted her phone (which wasn't exactly super high-tech or anything). At least she is safe and sound.

The one month of not working has put me back quite a lot financially, so I'm gonna be stingy and all if I can help it.

Body is still relatively weak. Throat still dries up easily, especially in my office where the air-conditioning is brutally frigid and the air stagnant and stuffy. Easing into my gym routine is painful, because I don't push that hard, but it still felt like I did so on the following day. Diet control is also still not up yet, although somehow I have developed my sister's liking for Weetabix type biscuits, especially for breakfast. I cheat though, by applying a moderate amount of chocolate spread and peanut butter in between two biscuits.

Phone has cracked (so much for Gorilla Glass) some time back (but thankfully it doesn't crack like Apple screens). Not bothered to change the screen yet since it still functions perfectly fine. The only thing I use my phone for is normal calls and messages, Whatsapp, and other social apps anyway.

The one thing that has never changed is I still sweat like a sponge oozes water. It's seriously not funny.

As for my tonsils, it's about 99% healed. There's still a tiny part at the back of the throat which isn't fully healed, but it should be okay in due time.

Finito.

Might be meeting elder sis in Singapore if her company sends here there in October. Also planning to go with my godbrother and several other people to Penang in December.






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