I Have No Time To Be Lonely

Not that I'm busy, but dealing with recovering to full health takes away most of my loneliness. No it isn't work, thankfully. It does not mean I don't need companionship anyway.

Beethoven series starting this weekend. Should I go?

Off Off-Limits

I've always contemplated how much of my working life should be exposed in this blog, for the reason of privacy, integrity, politics, and other various factors of which will just make things even more complicated. I have posted many posts that talked about my own issues within my work place, but never went to the point of being revealing. However, I think this is an important thing to chronicle for my own self.

What was just a creative review ended up as a semi-HR mediation. Emotions were high, but everyone still tried their best to keep their cool, including the bosses. Tears, anger, bitterness. Pent up emotions which was swept under the rug for the sake of our own professionalism and mere respect now overflows and boils to the point of decimation. The issue was handled very diplomatically, but was the questions answered? There are just too many people who love the company to death, love the bosses more, and love to produce great work no matter what it takes, but limits can be crossed and we might be stepping too far from our comfort zones. There's much to do and go from here, and changes might not be so fast as most would hope for, or they might never happen at all. But the tipping point has past, and if something does change for the better, the multiplier effect would be great. 3 resignations are on their way, this is no laughing matter anymore.

I feel a little more productive today compared to yesterday, but it doesn't seem to be at my optimal yet. Maybe I have grown to rely a lot on my AD, who is in Singapore for a shoot. Maybe, this is just a phase. Break through to the breakthrough.

My ulcers are still pandemic, but is slowly going down. Yay me. I'm not all that well yet though. We'll see.

Steve Jobs has not been the biggest inspiration in my life, but rest in peace knowing that your speech has made me a little more braver in my life, a little closer to living my life like it was my last everyday.

Love you all.

Spending Time Seeming Unproductive

Time passed to fast today, and although there was much effort put into work, I feel like I haven't achieved much. Also did a boo-boo today and was told of by the CD. AD gone to Singapore for the rest of the week. Throat seems to be doing fine so far, and ulcers seem to be toning down slowly but surely. It still hurts much. My blog posts have become random shorts. Haih. What is happening to me. I am not jaded yet, but it feels so heavy, burdened. I'm still enjoying my effort in work though. Tomorrow is the creative review. Hmmm. What will happen.

Mouthful of Sores

My whole mouth is ulcer infested. It hurts, and I can't tell if it is spreading to my tonsil.

Argh.

This is for Yesterday XXIII - Slipped My Mind

I forgot to update in time although I had time. Funny.

My whole mouth is full of ulcers now. Sucks be me.

Once Bitten Twice Shy

I'm coming to the end of my 4th antibiotic run so I'm praying and hoping that the issue remains at large, instead of rushing back at me like a raging bull of which I currently don't have the physical strength and mental finesse to go through. I'm tired, for more than just being ill, but gym sessions are draining me each time I push myself. I know I have to push myself to grow stronger, but sometimes limits are a personal thing to face. Let's see how long this lasts. This is indeed a lonely path for me.

I accidentally bit on my ulcer today, so tomorrow I shall be expecting a large irritating gash on the inside of my lip. Ugh. It beats the types near the gums or in an estranged area on the tongue. People say I'm heaty, and I probably am one of those who are a little more predisposed to getting these issues. Sigh. Deal with it!

I went to church again today. The simplistic proximal cause would be to see someone, but my heart yearned for something more anyway. I'm starting to get jaded in some sense, and this is not to my faith per se, but it is happening to the front I put up when I know that my worlds are colliding with each other.

Tomorrow I have a training session at the gym, so I shall sleep early. I don't think I'll be fully recovered physically, but there's no more time for rescheduling. I'll just have to suffer during work tomorrow. Slow recuperation sucks.

Am I really the cute type like everyone is saying? Hmmm.

Little Bit Of Here And Whatsoever

The sun did not rise today, and my spa massage and dinner plans were postponed. On the bright side, I got my hair cut and I'm happy with it.

Feeling much better today, I even did a 10-minute rush intensity cardio workout just before the gym closed. Yay me. I ate a lot during dinner though, but I will probably get a swim tomorrow if the sun is right.

Overall, it wasn't such a bad Saturday. Yay me.